just love the view... blue sky, hazy sky, cloudy sky.. whenever i am feeling low, i will sit in front of the window and just stone there... enjoying the view, the wind.. the sound of trains passing by.. -_-" haha.. looking out, it makes me feels so inferior at times.. it's like, the world is so BIG.. and, even if i dun exist, i don't think it will make much of a difference.. http://www.maxswim.com/

today was such an emotional day... felt as if playing roller coaster.. period..

Wat a day

stayed in camp yesterday.. cos got a duty.. which isn't mine in the 1st place... i remembered the wrong date.. hhaa... should be today instead.. and the best thing is, i only found out abt it when i finish my duty.. haha.. mm.. abit fark up lah.. i mean, the duty... last night's like one of the most chiam duty i did sia... it started fine.. no calls, no special case... till it hit 12am.. everything goes downwards from then on... -_-"

boss came back to do some work at 12am.. hard to sleep sia.. cos he will walk here walk there... close door etc... sianz... then, 1am... the 1st call come in... then 1.15am.. dun noe which farker trying to fax some document over to my office.. BUT the prob is he/she/it dial the mainline number instead of the fax number!!!! damn farker.. went on for like 45mins.. damn it.. and i have to gong gong answer the phone cos, it could be some genuine case.. *_*" sianz...

just when i thought everything settled down liao.. climax come liao.. i woke up at 6... STOMACHACHE.. super torturing sia.. have you ever tried this before... legs wobbly... climb up 2 flights of stairs... 1 hand holding a cordless phone, the other hand holding up to my shorts cos it's dropping.. then.. the sh*t is like near to overflowing.. but in such tight situation, somehow a very stupid thought cross my mind... "How abt sticking a finger into the a**? Will it prevent me from sh*tting on my pants??" stupid right... hahaha.. think still not awake yet.. hahah.. luckily i made it to the toilet cubicle just in time.. haha..

a new start

so.. mm.. finally decided to join in and start a blog of my own... at least, it will at least occupied some of the void which i had been feeling nowadays.. perhaps caused by the festival seasons? perhaps by my own self pityness? i cant exactly pin point just which is it...

from what ppl see, they may think i am a happy go lucky person?? ya.. i agree.. half the time, i would wait and wait and wait for things to happen instead of going for it... but, wat ppl din see is wat i keep inside me.. the side which is yearning to get out... to be reveal.... a side which i like better.. yet, it takes too much of me to change......

abit more abt me... serving the nation right now.. i remembered reading "NS.. where boys become MAN" i used to laugh at this... i mean, come on... i don't need NS to make me into a MAN.. i am already a MAN... that's what i used to think... since entering, i have to admit.. NS made me a whole new person.. a MAN.. a person i thought is impossible in the past.. yeah... including making me having alot more pimples... -_-" if i gotta change 1 thing in NS, it will be no CAMO on face... i mean, in war, do we really care whether there is some patches of green, black on our face?? if you are meant to be shot at, it's fate.. no amt of camo can save u.. pessimistic? yeah.. i am not the only 1... haha

till next time...